This is my own personal journey as I walk through the most painful experience of my life. I’m sharing my journey through this website blog and excerpts from my journals, because I know what it feels like to not know where to turn to even try to understand what was happening. Estrangement? No way, not us, we’re too close. I didn’t know who to talk to. I certainly didn’t know anyone else who had ever been through this. Who would understand and not judge me? I felt so much shame. I was lost and I felt very alone and isolated. When the estrangement with my oldest daughter first began, I never imagined that I’d have to learn to live without her for any prolonged amount of time, yet here I am, almost 5 years later with little to no contact. As I began navigating the grief, shock and intense emotions, I found myself aimlessly searching for any lifeline I could find. I’ve read books, talked to therapists and listened to podcasts, desperate to find help, support, and above all answers. I’m not an expert, I’m just a mom who is part of an ever-growing community of parents finding themselves in this most unnatural and heartbreaking place with their child/ children. My hope is that you can find solace knowing you’re not alone - we’re on this journey together.

Disclaimer: I am not a therapist and nothing I say should be taken as therapy. If you find you need additional support please reach out to a licensed therapist.